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Ohhh boy, we have another alleged case of drama surrounding an Indie Dev.
This was brought to my attention via Total Biscuit’s Twitter where he shares his thoughts on the allegations.
The long and short of it is that Zoey Quinn the developer of Depression Quest is being accused of exploiting the nepotism that tends to plague this industry by getting a bunch of favorable coverage from people she has supposedly slept with. In addition to this, videos supposedly critical of these actions have been taken down from Youtube with copyright claims, including a video by a smaller channel called MundaneMatt. It’s difficult to tell what is true and what is not. 4chan is all up in arms over it which means that alongside any truth there’s always going to be ridiculous stories and trolling attempts. 4chan is a blunderbuss. It’s a giant cannon filled with fuckin screws, nails, bodyparts, shit and waifu. When it fires, maybe 1% of it hits and the other 99% just goes everywhere and makes a mess. Added into this whole drama shitstorm is a cadre of SJW types and whoever it is that is opposed to that, MRAs? I don’t even know the terminology at this point and frankly I don’t fucking care. The kind of places posting information about this whole thing are also places I’d take with a pinch of salt or who already have a clearly outlined agenda. Internetaristocrat did the main video on this, a channel mostly dedicated to debunking SJW topics and complaining about how prevalent they are in todays media. A fair cause for the most part, though it’s a fine line to walk at the best of times. Honestly that whole debate is something I try and stay the hell away from because the people involved in it are fucking terrifying.
The original source of the allegations are from Zoe’s Ex-Boyfriend who claims she was cheating on him with multiple press members in order to get her game Depression Quest coverage and ultimately greenlit via steams Indie game submission platform.
Link to his Blog: http://thezoepost.wordpress.com/
There have also been many claims of the Indie Dev trying to silence any discussion of her supposed inappropriate press exploitation via false DMCA takedowns on youtube videos that are discussing the story and trying to bring it to light; Youtube User TheInternetAristocrat highlights this and discusses the original blog post and it’s impications in his recent video Quinspiracy Theory.
This has nothing to do with games and is not a matter of legitimate public interest, but is simply a personal matter. I would hope and request that the games press be respectful of what IS a personal matter, and not news, and not about games. This is explicitly about my private life, which has been regrettably forced into the public and framed by people who pose a threat to my safety and well being as well as that of the people I love. I would hope that the effort people have gone through to dress it up as anything more would not be enough to have those who see it for what it is take the bait.
I am not going to link to, or address anything having to do with the validity of the specific claims made by an angry ex-boyfriend with an axe to grind and a desire to use 4chan as his own personal army. This is not a “she-said” to his “he-said”. The idea that I am required to debunk a manifesto of my sexual past written by an openly malicious ex-boyfriend in order to continue participating in this industry is horrifying, and I won’t do it. It’s a personal matter that never should have been made public, and I don’t want to delve into personal shit, mine or anyone else’s, while saying that people’s love and sex lives are no one’s business. I’m not going to talk about it. I will never talk about it. It is not your goddamned business.
What I *am* going to say is that the proliferation of nude pictures of me, death threats, vandalization, doxxing of my trans friends for having the audacity to converse with me publicly, harassment of friends and family and my friends’ family in addition to TOTALLY UNRELATED PEOPLE, sending my home address around, rape threats, memes about me being a whore, pressures to kill myself, slurs of every variety, fucking debates over what my genitals smell like, vultures trying to make money off of youtube videos about it, all of these things are inexcusable and will continue to happen to women until this culture changes. I’m certainly not the first. I wish I could be the last.
Because I’ve had a small degree of success in a specific subculture, every aspect of my life is suddenly a matter of public concern. Suddenly it’s acceptable to share pictures of my breasts on social media to threaten and punish me. Suddenly I don’t have any right to privacy or basic dignity. Suddenly I don’t get to live out normal parts of life, like going through a bad and ugly breakup in private. I have forfeited this by being a blip in a small community, while those who delight in assailing me hide behind their keyboards and a culture that permits it, beyond reproach.
My life and my body are not public property. No one’s life and body are public property.
Sexuality is one of the most personal, hurtful, and easy things to demonize a woman over, and also has nothing to do with my games. Yet large swaths of the gaming community are either unable or unwilling to separate the two. I’m convinced that my ex chose 4chan as the staging ground for his campaign of harassment and character assassination because he knew this; he knew that someone claiming to be “from the Internet” has shown up at my house once already, and he is counting on the most reviled hubs of our community to live up to their sordid reputations. This is another example of gendered violence, whereby my personal life becomes a means to punish my professional credentials and to try to shame me into giving up my work. I’m still committed to doing my small part to create a world where no woman is at risk of experiencing this. That said, I am thankful that even boards with a reputation for being the most hostile places online have been able to tell the intent behind these threads and banned them outright, seeing the hate speech for what it is, and not-news for what it is.
As much as those leading the charge against me will do mental backflips to make posting pictures of my tits about “ethics”, the real agenda is plain as day if you give it even a moment of sincere critical thought. No one who would terrorize someone and the totally uninvolved people they love in this way on such a massive and public scale could ever honestly claim to be interested in “ethics” of any kind. These kinds of accusations have been levied against any woman of status in any industry, ever. I have been judged because, if you are a woman, you are expected to constantly “prove” yourself, and even mere accusations can somehow undo all the good you’ve done and justify any measure of depraved brutality against you. Meanwhile, I see major support thrown the way of my male colleagues when they are accused of any sort of wrongdoing. Neither of these attitudes is correct, and they are patently unfair and reductive. Nobody exists in a vacuum, and anyone can change and grow into a better person. Heroes and villains don’t exist – just regular boring-ass people with scars and fuckups and moments of brilliance. And every single boring-ass person deserves the space to keep personal matters private and handled outside the shark tank of anonymous internet boards.
Once again, I will not be addressing the specific validity of any statements about my private life. If you have good-faith questions or doubts, I am more than happy to discuss private matters in private, where they belong. But I refuse to be coerced into making my private life or anyone’s private life a matter of public record, and I refuse to be continually emotionally terrorized by people who have long decided to hate me regardless.
I’m looking forward to moving on and getting back to work. To anyone else who has had to deal with this kind of indignity on any scale, you have my undying support and my ear if you ever want to talk to someone who might understand. To the people who support my work and can see this crusade for what it is, thank you from the bottom of my heart. To those people, I love you, I always have, and I always will.
I̶t̶ ̶a̶p̶p̶e̶a̶r̶s̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶H̶e̶r̶ ̶t̶u̶m̶b̶l̶r̶ ̶a̶c̶c̶o̶u̶n̶t̶ ̶h̶a̶s̶ ̶b̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶h̶a̶c̶k̶e̶d̶ ̶b̶y̶ ̶m̶e̶m̶b̶e̶r̶s̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶4̶c̶h̶a̶n̶’̶s̶ ̶/̶v̶/̶ ̶i̶m̶a̶g̶e̶b̶o̶a̶r̶d̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶a̶l̶l̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶ ̶d̶e̶t̶a̶i̶l̶s̶ ̶h̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶b̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶p̶o̶s̶t̶e̶d̶ ̶v̶i̶a̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶ ̶t̶w̶i̶t̶t̶e̶r̶ ̶a̶c̶c̶o̶u̶n̶t̶.̶
R̶u̶m̶o̶r̶s̶ ̶a̶r̶e̶ ̶a̶b̶o̶u̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶s̶h̶e̶ ̶i̶s̶ ̶i̶n̶-̶f̶a̶c̶t̶ ̶d̶o̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶s̶e̶l̶f̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶d̶e̶f̶l̶e̶c̶t̶ ̶b̶l̶a̶m̶e̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶s̶e̶ ̶a̶r̶e̶ ̶u̶n̶c̶o̶n̶f̶i̶r̶m̶e̶d̶.̶ – Now restored to it’s original pre “hack” state. Who was responsible for the hack is unclear, though it seems 4chan’s /v/ as a group are not responsible. Claims are it was quinn herself or an individual trying to use 4chan as a scapegoat.